School..

School is already going to start again. School is going to start in 20 days *sigh* Back to school again after 3 months of vacation. Time really flies so fast... good thing, I have something to receieve in Sept. though...my FIRST album...LOL

In 20 days, 2nd quarter is going to start. I must improve. I have a feeling I'm not in top 5 last quarter...I hope not...parents will be dissapointed...I'll be dissapointed to myself as well. If I'm not in top 5..then I guess it's okay as long as I'm in top 10. I can't afford to happen again what happened last year. I was in top 20...*sigh* VERY DISSAPOINTED to myself...that was my first time to be on top 20..I was rank 16 and I had a 85 below in my report card that's why I'm not allowed to be on top 5 overall after I went in top 5 in 2nd, 3rd, 4th quarter. I musn't have 85 below last quarter so I can still go in overall for the rest of the quarters left. I must do it..I must go in top 5 overall this time. If my dad and mom decided to send me on Canada permanently..then this year will be my last year in school and in Kuwait so I must achieve my dream....to be go on top 5 overall...even just once.

I achieved my dream last year to be on top 5 in class. I was actually very suprised at my improvement..even my teachers and classmates were suprised. 1st quarter, my rank was 16.5 then I went up..REALLY went up in 2nd quarter..I was in rank 5..then I became rank 4 on 3rd quarter...then became rank 3 in 4th quarter. That isn't enough for me though. I want to be in overall...even just rank 5 in overall...I want to experience it.

But sometimes, it's a problem for me too...being in the top. My parents was never satisfied at my scores..they want me to be on the top..which is really hard to do especially with their pressure. But I guess I'll have to thank them too...because of them, I'm still struggling to be on the top and they made me think of this... "Never ever be satisfied in your scores because if you will, you'll never go in the top."...I think it's right, although that doesn't apply to all life situations. For me, it only applies on some things like in school...because sometimes, you'll have to be satisfied to the things you already have especially if you already have so many things that not all people have. Simple things like...food and shelter. Because some people doesn't even have anything to eat nor any shelter to sleep on.